Even if you’ve never been to a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, I’m sure you know how it goes from what you’ve seen in TV and movies. And my story is no different.
“Hi, my name is [withheld], and I am an alcoholic.”
I created Recovering Motherhood because I am an avid blogger, and I wanted to share my experiences with addiction, rehabilitation, recovery and sobriety. I want other people battling addiction to know that they aren’t alone, especially the young mothers with young children. Because I know that I felt a lot of fear and shame in that position, and I want you to know it’s ok.
But, this blog is for everyone. Even if you yourself are not a mother, perhaps you are an addict, man or woman. Or if you are not an addict, the chances are high that you’ve got a loved one that is.
I know that no two addicts’ stories are alike, and that mine is different from anyone else’s, but one thing you will find in recovery, through talking to other addicts, is that all of our stories share a common thread. And many of the details are the same. That’s one thing I find incredibly comforting about AA, and other support groups–to hear that I’m not the only one. I’m not the only one that hid bottles. I’m not the only one that drank first thing in the morning. I’m not the only one that would set out to “only have one drink” only later to find myself the drunkest girl in the room. These small details, the things that are made entirely of shame and guilt and self-hate, you are not the only one.
I choose to remain as anonymous as possible, at least for the moment, for a few reasons. One, I am still deeply and fully in recovery. It’s a very difficult process that involves amazing amounts of change. (Please don’t let that scare you off. The work is hard, but so worth it!)
The other reason is that I am a member of AA, and I will discuss AA from time to time on these pages. And I choose to remain anonymous based on the 10th, 11th and 12th traditions of AA, but specifically the 11th, which states:
Our public relations policy is based on attraction rather than promotion; we need always maintain personal anonymity at the level of press, radio, and films.
Basically, since I maintain this blog as a “public figure”, they’d rather I kept my identity anonymous to hold to the traditions of the program. (You can find more information about AA on my Resources page.)
Take my stories and experiences for what they are: only mine. But I hope in some way they resonate with some of you out there, and help you to feel comforted, and maybe even give you the courage to seek help should you need it.